When I was in kindergarten our teacher invited us to do a show and tell. I had taken some time to consider what I wanted to do because the moment felt important. There was a captive audience and I wanted to make it special.
At the time, I had been talking to my Godmother a lot. She had been doing a lot of transcendental mediation, was in the process of relocating to Fairfield, Iowa to a new Maharishi center, and had some of the most beautiful energy I had ever been around. When she spoke, I listened.
So when my time to share in the kindergarten class came, I was 100% clear what I wanted to tell everybody in my class. There was no toy I could show them that could compete with what I had to reveal that day. It was something my Godmother had told me that seemed super important to pass on to everybody. The biggest news I had heard to date.
So as I stood there, in my first big public speaking debut, two braids on either side of my head, a tooth missing, some corduroys and a baseball shirt, I looked at each of them, waiting for them to erupt with excitement and questions, and said:
“What I have to tell you is that you can fly.”
I just stood there looking at everybody waiting to see the joy on their faces. Many of the kids did look interested and curious, though one or two looked confused and in disbelief.
Then, as I was about to elaborate, all of a sudden, my teacher, who was standing on the side of the circle, interrupted, looked at me and said:
“Jenny, you can’t fly. What do you mean?”
I said: “Well, my Godmother knows how to fly. She told me she’s going to teach me. And when I learn, I’m going to teach everybody, so we’ll all know how to fly.”
A couple of kids laughed, though the majority of them were still there with me that day, believing it was possible.
But then, quickly, to my surprise, the teacher looked at me, rolled her eyes, looked at the other students, and declared to everybody:
“Jenny, humans can’t fly. That’s not possible. Only birds can fly” And then she asked me to sit down.
I wish I had the strength at that moment inside that shy and tender five-year-old body, to tell her she was wrong, to tell the kids not to listen to her or any disgruntled and jaded adults, and to talk with me after class about flying.
But instead, I sat down, became very introspective, and for the next 25 years struggled with public speaking and barely spoke about the magic that so many of the people in my life had shared with me.
The external environment we are living in on the planet right now is rife with kindergarten teachers who are doing way worse than the one I name in this email.
And what I’ve found is that life is a journey back to our essence and a coming home into our power, gifts, and sunshine.
There’s an opportunity and a responsibility to get back on track with those to complete our missions and to support others who are on this planet with us.
Right now, the world and the people in it desperately need us back on track, aligned with our knowing, wisdom, light, and flight.
It’s not a coincidence that my Godmother sent me this photo and simple text yesterday that read:
“I caught a rainbow for you.”
That’s what she has been for me, and what Conscious Girlfriend Academy has been for me —
A rainbow light under which I have been accepted and loved with all of my parts.
We can be that for each other and for ourselves.
We can put the wounded in our community under the rainbow light in our hands.
We can take turns picking each other up when we fall out of the light.
We can remind one another that we can continue to fly and shine, no matter what happens out there.
We can be the oasis for our lesbian and queer hearts & souls to find refuge to get back on track.
If you’re not already a member, please know you are welcome to join us, to add your version of rainbow glitter and stardust to the mix of what we’re cooking up to get us through these trying times.
And today, when you have a moment, put yourself in your own rainbow light offered by that beautiful sun outside and then offer some up to somebody else.
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